In French you don't say "I miss you". You say "tu me manques" which means you are missing from me.
One day I found a message from my friend on my fb. That message was so simple, 'how are you?' It's literally written 'how are you?' Just that. I don't know what her mean. I replied, then she replied again with the question, 'kok lama gak ada kabar'. Yup, I'm well known as the person who is very active writing fb status. I write many activities and what I see, what I feel on fb. But at that time, I was so bussy with my strugle to reach dream, job in office and my assignment in college in the same time. I stopped writing status and stop connecting to people. I don't know, may be my friend miss me. Actually sometimes I miss closed people too in my hard situation, but sometimes and almost always, I remember about 'tu me monquest'. Sometimes I'm affraid of that someone is missing from me. I do miss my friend too, I wanted to share every struggle I've done, but I was totally aware that my friends has their own life. I'm worry about that they are so bussy, and I am worry about whether I am bother them. It's like the expression of someone missing from us because of their own life.
Sometimes we miss someone so damn. It makes us suffer. However, what can we do when someone missing from us because of their own life and bussiness?
One evening I checked my silenced cellphone, then found that there were 2 misscalls from my dad. I ignored it because I was so hectic. Then I texted him couples hours later after I arrived at my boarding house. I asked him what happened. Then he replied that there was nothing, just my mom missed me and want to have some conversation. I don't know. My tears melted while watching evening Spongebob on TV. :D In several cases, I am missing from my parents.
sometimes I am suffer when there's no information about someone we miss. One day I talked to my friend, Randi, in front of Plaza Semanggi while waited for other friend, Rizka. I told him that actually I also invited other friend, Bayu to meet up, but there's no reply from him. I told Randi that usually Bayu will reply a week later after I texted him. May be he's bussy. Then Randi was so surprised and told me that he also forget he hadn't replied text from his friend since yesterday. Then he replied it before he forget again. Haha..
someone sometimes missing from us not in purpose.
Yesterday my cellphone was error after being borrowed by my friend to text my lecturer. It can not be used to write text again. Then I turned it off, hopefully it will be normal again when it is turned on. Then I found out that it was not normal again. I turned it off again, took off the batery, took on, turned on again, then it was not normal again. Then I tuned it off, in plan, for forever. But I finally turned it on before I went bed. It was normal. Yeyy.. I received text from my childhood bestfriend, Rini. I consider her as my old sister. Maybe because I was so naughty when I was child, I never call older friend with article mbak. Haha..
Rini asked me whether I ever go home or not. It has been age we didn't see each other. Because the answer will be complicated, I postponed to reply it then went to bed. I just remember right now, in the next day that I haven't replied that text. May be she think that I change so much. May be I am missing ftom her. I never text either call her. I never visit her when I was at home. Despite of that situation, Mbak Rini informed me directly about the born of her baby with personal and emotional text. Special and personal information, with intimate words, we're sister, right. Then, again and again, because I wanted to reply with nice words, I postponed to reply it. I plan to think in full of concentration situaton about those nice words. Then I forgot to reply her until several days. Unforgiven.
I also forget to reply text from young lecturer I just met, she need me for information about association of international economy politic my ex office initiated. I also forget to reply text from my ex teater friend. I am missing from them. My teater friend may be miss me. He text me with unimportant text. Or may be it was a preface text before he text me to get loan. Haha..
sometimes I am missing from everybody because of my own interest. Sometimes I miss someone, being suffer because of it although I know that he has their own important business. I just want to get simple hello. May be that simple hallo is what my parents want, what my childhood friend want, what my bestfriend want. May be sometimes somebody don't want it at all because it seems so annoying among their important business.
Last week I shop in Vikita for gloves. I saw a nice baby shoes. I directly remember mbak rini and her baby. I bought a pair of baby shoes then got weird look from shopkerper because of it. May be sometimes I am missing from everybody, but I never forget. Never.
Try not to be missing from beloved people. :)
