Je voulais te dire que je t'attends

One day one movie is a program I made recently. I will watch a movie per day. There are several reasons; First of all, I really need to refresh my mind and soul since there are several pressure in my life, such as love (toujour), thesis, job, etc. In the thesis-writing workshop, Mas Eric, one of the IRs lecturer and the head of the study program said that when we are stuck already in writing or thinking, it will be better for us to watch the movie or go strolling. That is why, watching movie every day is the part of my thesis writing program and my effort to chase my dreams. The second reason is because my membership in the library of IFI-LIP will end soon. Btw, movies that I watch are and will be France movies and I watch them in the library of IFI-LIP by borrowing its collection. So far I rarely use my membership card either for borrowing books or watching the movies. I paid rather expensive for this membership, that is why if I don't use it maximally before the validity ends it will be such kind of lost for me. The last reason is that I really want to improve my listening skill in Frech. I think watching French movie will little bit help.

It is the fourth day if I am not mistaken. Wait, first movie was Bel Ami, second was Priceless, oh, no, it is just the third day. Sorry. Today I chose "Oublier Cheyenne". I chose that movie because from the synopsis, I found out that the movie told about the Physic teacher who tries to forget her love who goes away. I think it will be so good, but I found out that her love is actually a woman too. hahh.. I don't like lesbian-story movie because there is no handsome boy in the main story. What a boring movie. Then I stop to watch it at about in the minute 24 then changed to the other movie.

I chose "He Loves Me He Loves Me Not". The main actor was Audrey Tautou. This movie first of all tells about the girl, Angelique (Audrey Tautou) who is in love withe cardiology doctor. Unfortunately, the doctor is married already. His wife is a lawyer. Angelique told her closes friends about her affairs with this doctor. She sent many gifts for the doctor, starting from the beautiful flower until the painting of his face. Oh ya, I forget to tell that Angelique is a talented artist, he is a painter. He got a scholarship because of her talent. 

Angelique found out that the doctor's wife was pregnant and it will make the doctor difficult to leave his wife. However, several days later the wife lost her baby because of the accident. After that the wife felt so upset and seemed to know the affairs of her husband. She left the house. After all of the chaos, Angelique told her friends that she will have a vacation to the other city (sorry I forget the name) with the doctor. The doctor named Luic, btw. On the day of the departure, Luic never came. Angelique felt so sad, she waited in the airport until late at night. On the way home, she dropped her stuffs (her bag containing clothes for vacation) into the river from the bridge she passed. She was suffer after that. Her friend, a guy who loves her, a medical student, came to Luic office and angry because Luic mad Angelique suffer. However, he got no result. Luic said that it is all over.

On the suffer period, Angelique still asked her friend to send Luic a gift. She said it is for the last time and she will never think about him anymore. However, on tv she watched that Luic has a problem because he attached his patient. The patient is a powerful woman and said that she will make Luic lost his career. Knowing this, Angelique searched the woman's address and killed her. Police thought that the person who kill the patient was Luic, then Luic was arrested. Angelique found out that Luic's wife supported him so much. She saw that they love each other, then Angelique do away with herself using the gass at her home. Luic was set free because his wife who is a lawyer can give a prove that Luic is innocent. Luic house is close to Angelique, that is why Luic can save Angelique's life when finally she was found in the suffer condition.

After Angelique's condition became ameliorate, Luic visited her room at the hospital. Angelique was so happy. Luic asked her whether her family already know about it, then Angelique said that she doesn't have family. She is alone in this world.

In the end of the movie, I found out that actually there is no affair between Angelique and Luic. It is just only Angelique's imagination. In her head, Luic loves her and planned to leave his wife for her. Her gifts makes Luic confused and his wife mad. I found out too that Angelique caused the accident that makes Luic's wife lost her baby. Her gifts became such kind of terror for Luic. Finally Luic knew that the person who do terror him so far is Angelique, her neighbour. He knew it from one of the letter that told that this person has nobody in this world but just only Luic. All of this started from one day when Luic knew that his wife was pregnant, he was so happy that he bought a big bouquete of flowers. He met Angelique in front of his gate when he got out from the car and Angelique on the way out. Because very happy, Luic took one rose flower from the bouqete and gave it to Angelique. Since then, Angelique was seduced by Luic's charm. Angelique started to imagine many things and did many irrational criminal things. In the end, she was arrested and punished that she has mental illness. She was in the hospital for certain period, then prisoned for 50 years. Luic has a happy family with his wife and children. In the end, a janitor of the hospital found out a very nice painting, a picture of Luic, made by capsules, tablets and pills in the Angelique's room. So far, she never took her madicine. The janitor cleaned it up and doctor thought that she was healthy already after the medical treatments. A VO (voice over) of Angelique, still-sick-Angelique said, my soul is sick that I imagine Luic loves me, but my mind and brain is healthy that always tell me it is not true but tell me to always wait for him." So sad,, she said that with the screen showed Angelique go out from the hospital heading to the prison. :(

The message I got from here is that people's charm can make somebody mad loving her/him. Without knowing it, sometimes may be our extra kindness can make people missinterpretate it. May be that is why I think that my "judes and sinis" behaviour is needed sometimes. It is useful to avoid people that we don't want or we don't love missinterpretate my kindness and over charming as the love sign. It will be verry2 complicated when the missinterpretating person is a person who has mental illness like Angelique. It makes troubles for people related to her but in the same time also sad when we look inside her feeling.